...whatever that means...

with me standing right there in front of it...

Have you...actually I should start this journal entry with "you know those moments in life..." but as an artist I tend to achieve originality but end with nothing but tabula rasa again. Yes I am having "on of those periods of my life" which suck at it's best.

Some four months ago I met the woman of my life. We moved in to live together after less than a month and got engaged after three. Than we made a decision to have a child, we succeed from the first try and life starts to make sense...but...one visit to the doctor and something is wrong with the baby, they say pregnancy will not go well and we will loose the baby. W e ask for another opinion, this time one of the best experts in the country...he gives hope...yesterday my fiancee starts bleeding and the baby is lost. They say it is normal thing and happens 3 out of 4 pregnancies and that we should be happy it happened so early, and also we should be lucky to know we can have children...why am I not feeling lucky?...

Here is the general setup. In the center there is a huge industrial fan powered by big V8 souped up with infinite horse power with pedal pressed to the max. Behind the fan there is a heard of elephants overeaten with laxatives ready to excrement on the fan when the gun fires starting signal.

Finally there is me, standing right there in front of that fan, waiting for the shit to hit the fan...gun fires...elephants release anal muscles with joy overcoming cramped faces and the shit hits the fan. Actually it feels as if a huge dragon just farted in my face since the fan vaporizes the shit so much I get only the fumes, and I am suppose to feel lucky the combination of events was as such...

...we lost the baby

I have reached 666 activity messages lol

I passed 10k, 10K ftw